im back on writing , finally .

i was really busy this month , with my final that coming up in few days , and then i'll be facing my holidays without books , finally .

i guess i dont had much time to even breathing , but hey see who updatin ?
i always seem to wrote before a big exam , the last post occured for my trial mock-up and i also wrote before my spm examination .

i see the pattern there . maybe i wrote for tae five after loads of studying . i took a lot of emotion this month , but as i see my mood tracker for this halfway of the month , i get sad oftenly not like the other months . this months is a really rollercoaster of emotion for me , and i took a really long time to heal myself .

i knew mainly the reason why i am sad , is being trapped in a lot of toxic argument where people only thought of themselves rather than try to talk and hearing others . this is why i really value people that had the understanding trait , and them are the hidden golden in the society .

other than that , probably because of my studies , where it decelerating much than it already are , and my exam anxiety start to pressuring me up .

but the short getaway i had really help me out .
probably a bit , since i still had to face some invalid argument and toxic things there .
but , seeing the sky really help , a lot .

probably because i had the things for sky , alot .
my gram feed had a lot of sky pic , i just realized .


at the end , i realize that maybe i need to slow down a bit , and push myself out of the usual relationship that i felt killing me day by day .

i will took it slow .
and i hoped the saying slow things take time really came true .

signing off .
listening to : giriboy ; graduated 

hello.

i just posted like yesterdayyy,  i think?  its fortunate that i post so constantly, since i am a bit lazy,  a lazy girl that does thing using my emotion.  if i want to do the thing,  i will do so well,  if not then forced emotion it is ;)

poor all homework that been done by my emo feels.

by the way, im here to let u know that im a lazy kampung girl that never wanted to use grab and uber apps , only kena hantar oleh my parents bcs thats only things that i am comfortable.

then,  at the evening,  my friend call me so sudden when im watching kdrama,  so im a bit weird out , since they never call me out of blue,  cross out the late night call to rant out,  that the only call i always made.

so,  then they freakinv ask me to find them grab or uber so they could go back to home,  since they at school for hari anugerah .

   i feel like whut?

   guys,  im like 152 miles away from you,  and you literally asked me to find you a grab car from so far??

   and i never use that application!?

   but being a good friend,  i downloaded the apps,  google how to use that things , and check the avaible grab driver for my friend.

and she actually already safely arrived and i mastered  another lifehack which is using this app .

   thank you for me and for her also.

so freaking long time not writing here,  and my letter challenge is actually hanging up not continued,  okay nadhirah.

so,  actually i just writing when it is rain here and i just got back to my house,  from Kota Kinabalu,  so i inspired to wrote this.

i just recently wear braces in January 2017, and now , my braces is five month in age.  i actually dont go to private clinic , just using goverment service,  since im a broke girl and decided to use my luck in waiting list,  and unbelievably , got so early in the waiting list,  like seriously early.

i started my teeth examination on march 2016 , in which my SPM year,  so i actually got so much friday and monday holiday.  what a dumb girl that got happy because she got no class when she got big examination that year.  seriously.

so eventually,  the process took not long that i thought,  using my luck it shortened , bless to Allah.

so today,  its my third time on changing my braces band + tighten it,  and i swear,  the more you come,  the more pain addened. i almost cry in the room if not for the handsome dr assistant that suddenly appeared in my teeth world.  ( i assumed he is a practical dentist,  i pray for ur best,  dr matthew . ) i almost laughing when i saw his presence,  because earlier i talk to the girls about how i never had any handsome dentist on my appoiment,  then suddenly one popped out!

so much drama,  eyy?  hahaha but seriously,  i had to cover up my laugh . thank you so much , happy virus.

and you too dr matthew.  i hope we met in future,  * cue my will to marry dr or dentist*.

so eventually,  the process went really well,  and i choose the not so striking band this time,  since the last one is too striking.

i just had to , so im not that striking to my lecturer in the future.  okay.  i had to keep myself in quiet enviroment like i use to have in my highschool year ( i wasnt sure the quiet part tho)  .

and,  here are my time lapse for my braces,  its not like zoomed up pic of my teeth or whatsoever,  but still,  i want to post it!

and the pic is very poorly took,  because im not photogenic at all . bless all my pic that turned out well.